So It's been a while...

I have been MIA from this site for about 2 months now and I figured it was time for an update. I just haven't found much time in the past few months to update this thing! I'll give a quick summary of what my life has been the last few months....

July: Finished up with summer classes and then headed to my favorite lake in the world for a week of skiing, tubing, jet skiing, and just generally bumming it in the sun with my family. It was great to unwind finally after boards/summer classes and everything else that had been going on. Also, as we all get older and busier, the times that I get to spend with my family are shorter and farther between.

August: Got back to KC, packed up the last two years of my life (which were some of the most emotional days I've had in a long time), loaded up my car, said goodbye to my brother and Bentley and headed to St. Louis for some time with my parents. I was in St. Louis for about 4 days and then headed from there to good old Toledo. I was by myself in Toledo for about a week with no furniture until my parents brought up the rest of my things that next weekend. I lived here for about a week and then spent a week and a half traveling to Detroit, Chicago, and South Bend to visit friends I hadn't seen in a while. It was a great time but exhausting!

September: Got back into Toledo on Labor day, had orientation at the hospital for 3 days, headed BACK to South Bend on the 3rd day for Jen and Andy's wedding, spent a long weekend in South Bend, went to the Baptism, headed back to Toledo, and started rotations on Monday.
So far rotations have been going OK; I feel completely incompetent and have no idea how to treat anyone's conditions (but I can do a mean H&P!--history and physical).

I don't really have a lot of interest in family medicine but it's an interesting representation of the population I think. I'm slowly realizing that most people are dealing with a lot more than they ever let on. Whether it's a physical or mental disease, so many people are struggling daily--some have accepted what they're going through and are trying their best to fix the situation as best as they can. Others deny that there even is a problem and continue living their lives the only way they know how as their minds and bodies deteriorate further. I think the hardest ones to understand though are those who realize that there is something going on in their bodies that is destroying them, but still refuse to be compliant to the instructions of their doctor, the person in their life who has their best interest at heart and only wants them to live a long and healthy life. They know there's a problem, but they just don't seem to care.

As I was thinking about this this week, God did a little nudging on me. Which category do I fall into when it comes to the things in my life that are hurting me spiritually? Sadly, I don't think I'm too often the first one--the one who realizes there is a problem and complies quickly with what needs to be done to fix it. Usually I find myself in one of the last two categories. Either I have gotten so used to my sub-standard state of "health" that I don't even realize there's a problem or worse, I'm in the last category--I realize there's a problem in my life, but I'm too lazy to care. The problem is, just like any disease, the problem doesn't go away if you just pretend it's not there. While I'm pretending I'm OK and ignoring all the warning signs, it is silently destroying parts of me that God wants to heal if I'll just let Him.

OK, so I wasn't planning on having all that come out. Hopefully it made sense. There's been a lot of things running through my head lately and this is just one of them. I'm really starting to enjoy and learn so much from this new chapter in my life. I'll try to keep you all as updated as time allows on anything interesting I stumble across! :)